OMG! I recently went on a little weekend trip to El Salavdor for a wedding. I havent been on a plane for more than 6 months (I really had the chance to travel but every time, the phobia comes in and I back out. HOW STUPID)
Let’s begin by telling the story about how I got this phobia. It was out of no where really, I never had any problems flying! When I turned older I started to get nervous on the plane but it was manageable. Then, out of no where on a flight I started to feel as if my blood pressure went down and I felt trapped, as if I couldnt move! That was my first panic attack. If you guys know me and follow my life on Instagram, I’m sure you know I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks.
Back to that day, I started telling the person I was traveling with, that I NEEDED the plane to land because I couldnt do it. I was really feeling bad. If you have had a panic attack you know how the mind is and it takes control of your body and thoughts. Just the fact of thinking that the plane would fall and I would leave my family and dog alone, was something out of my comfort zone and made me go crazy!
After that, I decided I will never fly again without any pills. I took Xanax every time and it was fine, I was ok during the flight! But that didnt take my anxiety of the day (or two) before the trip! I am not kidding when I tell you, I literally did not sleep or eat. I starting seeing everything thinking that it was going to be the last time. I was going crazy and my mind couldnt stop it.
They say that when you have more things to loose, you are more scared of taking risks. Well, I am not sure if it’s that but I probably thought I had less things to lose (though time). Two days before, I was thinking that maybe I wasn’t going… I literally blocked myself from thinking about me being in a plane and I convinced myself that it was not going to happen. Well, OH SURPRISE I slept very well the night before! I was calm when I was driving to the airport and for the first time in a very very long time I actually felt excited about going on a trip!
( I would love to tell you how many trips and experiences I’ve lost because of this stupid phobia, JESUS! can I take back time?)
I did not want to take a chance and have a panic attack in the middle of the flight! I have been experiencing them a lot lately and I couldn’t afford one more. I took literally the minimum I could take of Xanax. (3 times less than what I usually take to fly)… IT WAS AMAZING. I was relaxed but there, I was actually enjoying the view! I saw the sky, the clouds. I felt good being up there (I think I’ve never had this feeling before).
On the trip back home I did the same thing. And it was great again! (actually better because I was excited to see my dog).
If you suffer from this phobia, I am sure you’ve heard 10000 times from absolutely everyone that
- The plane is the safest transportation
- Look at the odds! It’s most probably to get struck by a lightning than crushing on a plane
- You’ll be fine!
And so many other things! But no guys, when someone is scared none of that really matters. My advice? The only thing you can do is work with your mind, find the things that work for you and little by little it can go away! I am not sure if mine did, but I am sure I will work on it and I will NEVER say no to a trip again because of the airplane. So what’s the worst that can happen? Yeah, the same thing that can happen while you’re in bed! So why not enjoy the moments? WORK WITH YOUR MIND! ITS THE MOST POWERFUL TOOL IN OUR BODIES, AND ONCE YOU HAVE CONQUERED THAT, YOU WILL OWN YOUR EMOTIONS AND THOUGHTS.
I will keep you guys updated on my next trip, I am going to do it without any pills! Wish me luck!!!! (positivity is the best tool too!)